Tuhan tolong....

Kenapa gue nggak bisa punya good relationship with my parents? Kayanya susah banget utk nyenengin hati mereka. Kenapa gue merasa terbebani, sebagai anak, utk bikin hati mereka seneng? Kenapa koq nggak bisa mereka seneng, bahagia, puas, dan content with the way I am? Sepertinya di mata mereka, gue banyak banget bikin salah, and I am so far from perfect; even though they know I can't be perfect_no one can. Gue nggak minta supaya bisa dilahirkan di dunia ini, dan diasuh oleh keluarga ini. Dgn keputusan mereka 20 thn yg lalu, mereka sepakat utk punya keturunan, dan lahirlah gue; not from my will, but their's.

Sekarang gue nggak bisa ngapa2in. Tapi.. do I have to let go someone I really care, just because my mom thinks he's not good enough for me? I undrstand he has past, he has his own stories, far from perfect (at least according to their standard)... Should I? Should I let him go to make my mom feel that I still respect her? Gue cape dengerin nyokap gue berisik ttg dia, hrs mikirin gimana pendapat org lain ttg gue..... Gue nggak tau mau ngapain? Gue hrs nurut kata nyokap gue dan hrs rela mematahkan hati org yg lagi jatuh cinta, who is on his way to better life style? Ato tetep menjakankan hubungan gue, dan berharap nyokap gue suatu saat nanti bakal liat siapa sebenernya org itu? Gue pusing...

Tuhan tolong...

BE GOOD TO ME, I GAVE BLOOD TODAY...

Well, that's what's written on the sticker I got today from donating blood. I feel so good! So everytime someone asked me what have I been doing today, I'd say, "I gave blood today!" Gaya...

When I got there, there were barely anyone. Just the nurses and the staff. So I walked in, filled up some form, got my blood tested for iron (maybe), then I'm ready to go. I was confident than ever. I mean.. I'm giving my blood here.. they gonna suck out my blood off to a bag for about 3 lbs. I mean.. I've done this before. I drank a lot of water, and I ate before I go there.

Then it happened again. I needed to go to the bathroom, while my blood is flowing out to another container. (the same exact thing happened the first time I donate blood)

It only took me 10 minutes (tops) to fill that bag. Then the nurse came and ask me how's I'm doing. With smile I answered, "I'm FINE!!" Then he did his thing, where he had to put my blood sample to several tubed, and band my hand. (with a really cool band [i think] _ it's hot pink with smiley face on it)

Then.... they told me to walk down to the "cafetaria" and sit there for 15 minutes, while they feed me with sugars to gain my energy back. At first I was fine, I cool.. hey.. this is my second time! I gave blood!! Wuutt..wuuttt... Then suddenly I felt kinda light headed... it's like my blood is going down.. and slowly I couldn't see really well.. and I couldn't hear people talking... They rushed me to an emergency bed on the side, and elevated my legs (so the blood could go back up) The male nurse who were in-charge for it was CUTE! But he's old though.. damn! I end up twice on that bed.. huehuehue Since they knew I need to go to bathroom so bad, so they escorted to the bathroom, and told me not to lock the door, incase they hear me fall.

But overall I love giving blood. My next appoinment.. in 3 months! I feel good already!! YEY!!

Never thought that my color is... I guess it's not bad at all..

Rima, Akira, and I went to take pictures yesterday... here's some of it.. enjoy!

All disco baybeh!

80's rules!

Look at the background.. we're trying to be gay.. how sad. But it's fun!! Go rainbows!!

But look at this one, isn't this a cute gay picture? This is my favorite! Rock on, Aki! YO da Man! Omigoth... youuu luuk tthhhow hot!

What are you doing, Rim!? Having fun bitting a hard nipple? For heaven sake he's your cousin! But it looks like Aki enjoying it...

Yeah.. I know, we look retarded... But leave us alone! We're having fun!!!

This one is taken after I got my nails done by the one, and only Akira Sawada. I'm happy to be your loyal client. I'll call you again if I need a mannie-paddie, ok?

Well.. there's some of the pictures we took.

Yesterday was really fun to begin this summer. So where are we going again, guys!? Take more pictures? hahahahaha...

.... i wanna go to beach.... Hey Rim! Let's go to beach!! *calling Rima right away*

Hidup jomblo tuh ternyata seru jg yah. Enak gitulho.. Yaah.. paling kendalanya cuma HBL ajah. hahahahahaha.....

Sepertinya gue bakalan jomblo dalam waktu yg lama deh. Mengapa, oh mengapa? Oleh karena, eh karena...

1. Belom siap sakit hati (lagi)

2. Gue sekarang jadi picky. (kata Rima) [uhm.. nggak picky siih.. jadi selective doong! hueheuheu ]

3. Kalo emak-bapak gue tau gue punya cowo, hidup gue bakalan under microscope!! Semua gerak-gerik gue bakalan diperatiin terus. Bisa tiba2 hilang curvew, dan somehow bakal kena grounded. hahahhaha

4. Untuk consideration #2, sebenernya gue nggak nyari yg gimana2 bgt.. banyak "candidate" kalo diliat as a whole memenuhi syarat bgt. But there's no spark.. and that's the more important factor i'm looking for.

5. I think right now I'm going for HTS (hubungan tanpa status), ato FWB (friends with benefits). Uhm.. masih ada kata lainnya? O yeah.. Domestic Partner. LoLz

Whohohohohooo... I think I'm learning to be a biatch. hauhauaha.. (NOT a whore) Naaaah.... just kidding.

Tuh.. kan enak kalo jadi jomblo. Freeeeee.... Dan untuk melampiaskan HBL, tinggal cari HTS ato "temen" ajah! That way, you can take off from the "relationship" when ever you want, no string attach. Tapi yg pasti nggak boleh ada cemburu2an... Kan cuma buat physical doang. Paling buntut2nya kalo lagi "main" terasa hambar. (Apa sih lo 'Cha...) hahahahahahlolz

Everybody: TAEEE LO CHA!!! KE LAUT AJA LO!!!!

Icha: Aih gila! Siapa nih yg ngajarin gue kaya begini!?

Uhm... ngomong2 tadi gue makan apaan yah? Dah minum obat belom yah gue? Penyakit apa nih yg kambuh? [kalo sakit jayus sih emang nggak ada obatnya]

Btw.. computer gue dah sembuh.. HORE...